Sick

Well today is a crummy crummy day! it was bad since i didnt get any sleep last night cuz of this stupid cold that i have and i hate it so i stayed home and had a sleep which made me feel better so yeah! last night i went to the strathclair drama production it was good had a good time with andy and frank(andys dad) and granny so it was wicked mandy was awesome in it! and today i have to go and help out the younger kids with soccer so thats pretty darn exciting for me! other then im sick so thats kinda blah! but it should be a good time! not much else to say tho so ill go! later!

April 13

well nothing new has happened in a day! i watched Blood dimond yesterday with andys mom! it was wicked totally loved it! but it was really crazy! and well i thought about my grandpa when i went to bed just because well i dunno just wish i was with him! the movie that me and andy both want to watch came out yesterday i do beleive so thats pretty cool its called disterbia so i hope we go watch that tonight or something! im off to brandon on saturday to do my last day of driving so thats pretty scary because i have never drove in brandon yet....maybe ill just make kyle drive first! lol:p that will work right!
im doing math right now...well kinda not really me and chris arent able to go into the computer room to do our work so we are upstairs in the grade 6 room! its soo crappy up here poor kids i tell ya well...im off just wanted to leave a blog! its time to roll! ill leave another note tomorrow! later

Schoooool!

well im at school right now doing some gay ass math that makes no sense to me what so ever so me and chris have given up untill mr maynes is outta his stupid pre calc class! nothing is really new! first soccer practise today and i totally cant wait! other then im not feeling to hot so i likely wont have to much fun! but we have some new coach! it is crazy! hmmmm what the heck else to say! me and my boo are doing great! justin m moved away to his moms so that was pretty crazy cuz i was just driving with Dave yesterday and then he texted me and told me! i felt so bad about it but i mean if he feels like thas what he wants then thats kool! my sister right now is talking about some gay lil monster thing thats hairy and has man boobs so thats pretty funny! and court well she is just being stupid! but i think that this is enough later

Yeeesh

well yeah okay nothing major has happened in the past few days! i went and watched Blades Of Glory on i think it was thursday night with my boyfriend(love ya babe)and then we went to blains wish was gay i must say! and then on friday night we all went to Sandy Lake to were in which i got really drunk and i am not proud of some of the things i did! but ya know its kool! on satuday i was so sick and had a crazy bad head ache! but o wells i guess and now today it is sunday and i just had the awesomest supper i have had in a while! and yeah now im stuffed to the bones! and im off to see my boo again! haha i hardly ever leave him!....and hes going to be here any min so i better run! laters

I cry for you

Okay so most of you are likely wondering why on earth would i put that! well here is the deal this spring break i went to Alberta were my grandpa and a whole bunch of other family lives! and now i dont spend alot of time with my grandpa and i normaly hate going there...but for some reason this time when i went there to see him he brought tears to my eyes! he looks so sick....he cant walk he has to ride in a wheel chair! he is shrinking and he looks like hes a lil kid only hes old! he has blisters on his feet that he doesnt know were they came from....he can hardly talk and his eyes are hardly open! he tries to talk and be open about how he feels....he even told my mom that he wished someone would just shoot him! now this may not seem like a really bad thing to any of you! but really this kills me....now normaly im not a very heartfilled person but now i cant stop thinking about my grandpa! i cry every now and then because i feel like i should be there with him keeping him company and talking with him and taking him on walks with me but im useless way over here in manitoba! my mind now a days is in a totally different place! i try to hide my thoughts but andy notices them! and im sure others do to! i dont talk as much! and i feel sick alot! i wish i could trade my life so my grandpa could live longer and have a longer life and beable to see more things! there are a million things in my head telling me that im crazy for wanting this but its how my heart feels! it kills me to see him like he is! it hurts my heart! i wish i was with him now! i love how ppl can walk around like things are fine when really there is nothing right about this my whole world has changed in a week! and its amazing how i feel! i wish that i was with him now! i mean yah i have a great life i have a great family and a wonderful boyfriend who cares and loves me with all his heart and i feel the same way for him but why couldnt my grandpa stay a little longer in this world and share his love with his wife and his kids and hes grand daughters and grand sons! that would be the best thing for him! i dunno this all seems so complicated but i just wish people knew that things arent always okay and that things are never ever fair!
I miss You Grandpa Don! xoxox cant wait to see you!